god gave me a strength, well of course, its really great!
god gave me a gift, well of course, its fantastic!
god gave me a sign, well of course, i followed it!


we see the the treasures we receive everyday, hoping that one day, when we die, we dont go to hell. eventually, it becomes embedded into us that we looked at it from another perspective.


we are born to sing priases to his name,
yet we curse and swore grittingly.
we are born to play the heavenly music,
yet we destroy what worth we see before our eyes.

carry on the slavery we debt ourselves in,
material happiness and blinded aims.
but true joy manifest itself in pure sorrow,
to store our thoughts within those tears.

peace peace peace,
laughter with some insanity.
we ruin the lives of others,
so we proclaim satifaction.

we do not carry the heavenly oath,
and we slave for the mighty rich.
never will we pay the price,
because? we are jus too self centred.





thank god for this early dismissal. the pain buzzes in my head, rolling and rolling and rolling, over and over again. quit it quit it quit it. i hate ambitions that i hold, it jus kills character. it makes me so weak, enslaved yet to another personality that i dont seem to understand. freedom of choices became wild experimentations i could never comprehend. so tell me, what is my message this time god? to do nothing? to hold back and to tell myself, my time is over?

im destined for a greater glory, a glory of nothingness, or senseless achievements, till i continue the pray that i left off and tell myself, not to fall again.

sweet grades, i cant go anywhere, ohwells. study study study, and not get distracted.

and for those i meant to say. sorry is the word. sorry.





sometimes i wonder, what good it brings to put someone before one self. maybe it leads to a little lunatic and foolish actions, well, isnt self sacrifice destructive?




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breaking free to something new. =)