God,

grant me a heart of stone,
grant me the numbness in the veins,
grant me feelings that wont last,
grant me jealousy to kill,
grant me fervour for blood,
grant me mouth to lie,
grant me the guts to slit,
grant me the life of infidelity,
grant me endless shame.

please?






cant i feel this way, the friendship i treasure, just lost because of some people, lost because they already lost their own passion, and blame it unto me. but yes, grant me those wish, that i will never turn back, to fight off those anxious moment, where i cannot look in the mirror but somewhere else, i can never forget, that ever being happy, is seeing someone else happy and also, to know that everything went right.



we cold, be bold to let go, this is the time, where getting the best out of things, is to be mean and never to forgive. dont ever look far and expect simple things to happen, people are incapable of doing so.




;
breaking free to something new. =)