GOSH. i have such an ego problem with my own abitions. quiet but im becoming quite radical about it.


10 things im feeling.
1.) PISSED
2.) FRUSTRATED
3.) ANGSTY
4.) ANNOYED
5.) SATISFIED
6.) CHOCOLATE CRAVINGS
7.) PIMPLE HATING
8.) HOMEWORK DREADING
9.) PAIN
10.) CONFUSED



okokok. why why why huh!?!?!?!?!?!
firstly 1, 2, 4, and 9, is due to my injured. PLEASE PLEASE everyone PRAY FOR ME. im such a loser seriously because im big and clumsy and really in need of some miracle to recover in time for sports carnival an a competition coming up on the 17th of May. apparently, its really an occasion where i can test my own abilities. in which matters alot to me especially in my own physical challenge and hope for a better achievement in my tootpicking. BUT ALL THESE PAIN. it jus sucks when the groin pains come back, both sides now, its seriously.. SUCKS. im sososo annoyed! then had a cut on my big toe yesterday. GAHHHHHHHHHHHH PAIN. and today WORSE. i wore this really smaller pair of socks. and it caused my veins in my left feet to swell because it seems to be cramping everything up. GAHHHH! im such a sympathy wanting person. BUT I NEED PRAYERS!!!!! hopefully i recover. i wanna run and walk and erm. move around smoothly. i remembered i was in crutches once. hohoho. dont remind me.


im ANGSTY with my GP teacher. i think she sucks. I HATE her. but well. tolerance. i dont care, i dont give a **** seriously. i jus do what i think will be right and i let ur old self believing blabbering mouth talk all the cock all the world it wants. blah blah blah. (FUXOFF). (shall not say anymore) MRS SNG U JUS SPOIL MY FREAKING DAY.


5 and 6. =) yesyes., IM CRAVING FOR SO MUCH CHOCOLATES HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! omg. i eat many many cadbury and van houtan chocolates amany. i think thats why it leads to the ANGSTY (again) and pimple hating factor. its HEATY! i swear, but i love it. maybe its stress ^ ^. excuses ahh aaron.


okok for the homework dreading factor. common in JC life. so anyone who reads this. u guys will totally understand.



CONFUSED EHHH yesyes i am. but i shall leave my thoughts to ponder for awhile. those few moments make me so lost in transition between reality and a "what would be" situation. i guess everything will be fine. (but what is it) shant say too much about it.



my heart needs time to heal,
my heart needs time to feel,
my heart so numb so real,
my heart i believe so frail.

carry on those spite,
of different dimensions of right,
but i promise i'll bear with it,
if u would compromise.

i wouldnt dare,
i wouldnt try,
im scared,
im dried.



i really wouldnt wanna try anymore. that L word. its sacred. only God feels that way towards me. im terribly upset, sigh. i hope that L word goes away from me. far far away. am i hiding? am i running away? i dont know. dont wanan talk abt it. good nights.




;
breaking free to something new. =)