theres more than the stars in the sky to shine, that is the impossible reach of the far ends of the universe. we left the red horizen, feeling lost and empty, feeling what had happened to go wrong this way, yet we also understood the situation, where the outcome is inevitable. we could see it coming, but never wanted it, in the end, its a matter of a million heartaches, for jus a single soul. this is your first struggle, but my amany. its not about immunity or complacency, but of deepened scar. for pain wakes the sleeping giant within, bringing out a a whole new dimension of reality and feelings. cruel and heartless i may seem, but hate me for that, hate me for this time for bringing everything to an end, abruptly you may say, but thats in your point of view. whatever you may say again, but if you truely felt the pains of loving, you'll smile instead and wont be living a life of materialistic denial.

today would haf been fantastic five, a whole new world and a whole new drive, but yet im stating the impossible. no matter what, i know how it feels like, to think that everything is gone before you, to think that everything has ran before you, and to think that everything dont feel as right. maybe u just had to feel it, to appreciate me more, but also, you may not feel a thing due to you difficulty to do so. curse me or swear upon my name, i know this destruction will bring an abundance of burning hatred in you, apparently, your ignorance doesnt see it like everyone see so. rage rage rage and more rage, if u feel like hitting something, if you feel like screaming out loud, if you feel so lost and desponded, welcome to how i felt, when i loved an cared a little more, for sometimes, love is found when u realise you lost it.

something for you...



sweet indulgance for the bitter times,
satisfactory always seem so distant,
its always good to feel love,
has it been great to love instead?

lessons may have to be learnt painfully,
for similar hardships have to be beared.
it wasnt about a vengeful spite,
but jus a little more than a deadful ache.

i pray to my angel,
to send god a request,
but albiet my efforts,
it was to no avail.

then i realise that he replied me,
brought me to my feet once again.
told me that, i had to love myself,
and find myself a path, alone.

you may seem like the most impacted,
and tears refuse to make you lonely.
please dont, please dont,
for believe in the last few words i've said.

this dream i held so tightly,
shattered before my very eyes,
why?
due to the decisions of the fragmented heart.

everything will never be the same,
but you have to know,
it was out of desperation,
to save a bond forged for a lifetime.

somewhere, sometime, somehow,
we need that little faith to see,
how much patience we have come to thee,
and you'll know, youre being loved.




have a great day, my special someone, life is jus going on, like it has to.




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breaking free to something new. =)