11:38 pm
its been awhile since i really blogged, well, have been really busy.
its really been full of ups and downs, its really disappointing and upsetting sometimes but sometimes it felt happier and full of smiles. i wonder why such a past will kill your faith now, its entirely disgusting of me, bear with me awhile okays. =)
i feel so sick sometimes, wondering why i deserve these hardships. it felt that i've been waiting so assure myself so much that new and harsher problems comes up to make matters worse. i cant possibly count everything as a blessing in disguise. i dont think its possible, it makes it seemed really disappointing now that i've to bear with even more problems in this life of mine. so much to think about and many more to worry. why have i have to be so young. its really disappointing that my efforts go to waste sometimes, but not regretted i believe that oine day i will be rewarded greatly. sometimes i felt like im on cloud nine, sometime its worse than hell, but why? why must i get to this stage of it all? havent i suffered so much already? i guess its life this way, but soon please, god, please, appease me soul. soon. please. u cant complain forever, and doing something about it is more important, but it does seems that i need to trust in my own way, matters would be better, but all i need is to know what is going on all the time, thats all.math paper math paper. but wait! PW AND CHINESE As stand in the way. okay. aaron be a good boy and pls survive well. 2 more days to the chinese paper and 9 more to the OP. great. and and and hmmmm 15+4. gosh 19 more days to math paper. OKOKOKOK NEED TO MUG BYEBYE
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breaking free to something new. =)
