fuck the promos result. efforts dont always pay off. and now i feel like a complete idiot trying so hard to make it yet the results dont show. i dont know yeah. saying that i didnt out in enuff and too late. i started straight after mid years. i came back to school and stayed till late to study.maybe not as effective but i did my work. slowly as i can. i dont understand why some say i slackened off when i knew i put in even more the effort. freaking bullshit la cjc.

the results aint showing and i guess showing meant the way out of the school. screw it, i wonder when does hard work pay off. its good game for me.


today was a good day. its the beginning, till death... ya know =)



feigning the ignorance many shall suffer,
inbetween us existed nothing like a buffer,
today was nothing like anything else i could remember,
it all started when u gave that sweet smile,
something i couldnt refrain even from a mile,
so darling could care to stay for awhile.

the fear i saw in your eyes this time,
though more or less time flies when we were talking,
and those gentle pecks ever hinting,
we could do nothing but wait a little more,
mightily it struck with strength and with gore,
your heart i wouldnt break neither would i tore.

like nothing when the silence appease the downfall,
heavy rain i prayed for couldnt subside anymore,
torrential rain it fell and it pour,
thy calmness i swore to you on this very moment,
in which those fingers interlocked with ease,
well, if only time could slow down and freeze.

crazy was my mind i couldnt control,
before i knew you, i was lost in another world,
where drugs and vices ruled my mind,
where smoke and drinks spoke it fine,
till u came and rescuse me from this dreadful nightmare,
and broke the curse i brought upon myself.

dipping thy feet into the unknown sea,
where the depths arents measured as suppose to be,
what lies ahead and below we hold unsure,
i'll jump in to find u my dear,
because i know it is all thats worth,
i couldnt bear this moment without you.

there are times my foolishness made you weep,
and there are times where inevitable hurt made you bleed,
but nothing hurts me more than anything else,
than to see you fallen in pain and the gush so deep,
my love i promised you i give you to keep,
wont you accept it darling wont you baby?

i didnt know what you did to me,
to make me uphold my pride and fall so deeply,
risking it all for the sake of this emotion,
but i bid farewell to everything in decision,
and i trust me own farewell and preparation,
i'll be so sure to score this distinction.

so beautiful this memory i wont forget,
because it held its own significance to me right now,
with respect i comamorade this with a bow,
and remember the little flower?
with all my pain i offer up to above,
that this time, it be all worth it.

ps:iloveyou





WOOHOO. if only i can forget this shitty feeling of going to retain. i know i tried damn hard. but wells. argh. i hope what my mum said is true, give it more time, ur efforts will come to light. i hope everyone who have faith in me will vouch for me. thanks all. =)




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breaking free to something new. =)