its such a fucked up life. ohwells.


i dont like to hear those silence anymore, please, open what i sought, i dont have much time left inside, im reallly running dry, cuz im giving everything i've got.



and now im still waiting... waiting for u to come online as usual. owells. im seriously frustrated, disappointed, demoralised, numb, espcially numb. and it sucks like seriously. it taking such a toil on me with such feelings i dont wanna feel. why do i feel this way? i question myself why, and why i shall keep questioning myself. i feel like im going thru is all alone. those time i spent trying to make it work, was it all in vain?


im beginning to wonder what am i running on now? my last ounce of blood left in my heart? or is it just the last strand of faith i had in me. its really running so thin right now. do something to salvage it, i dont have much time left. dont expect much, because i think i've gave enough, fill me in this time, please, give me the strength instead, and i swear i'll be up and better again. hopefully.




fucked up china trip. bitching that the j2s are going as well. bunch of motherfuckers. i swear, ure spoiling my day entirely now, fuckers, and if the teachers are discriminating those whose chinese aint good, then please, fuck off.





it was never a win win situation. things wont work out for this event. all i can do it, to pray, that i can hold on. hopefully.




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breaking free to something new. =)