11:33 pm
i neeed motivation. like ALOT OF IT. i dont know, what motivation do i have now? nothing, absolutely nothing. im ashame of myself, getting distracted too easily. i seriously lacked the discipline. more or less, i lacked the real incentive to do things, is this the way i do things? or was it just me being really lazy or really hopeless. sigh.
i counted every step i took,
patiently waiting though,
hidingg behind those transparent pillars,
thinking that you couldnt see me.
i felt that you didnt look,
neither did i ever caught your attention,
because i was too filled in my thoughts,
something that you're so unsure of.
so who is the one that really mattered,
who is the one that i really care,
was it fair to say theres more than 1,
maybe 2 or 3 as a matter of fact.
i learnt to be selfish,
because this game is so ruthless,
it will always bring about disappointment,
disappointment at its very best, inevitable.
god always granted sweet innocence,
so we wouldnt have to end up this way,
but i would really like to know,
would it ever go away.
make it known girl,
im waiting,
and if you know,
i'll make my move right.
im so lost in my history work! badbad! im so screwed la. promos like so freaking soon and im still blogging down here. argh!
i wish i knew what my heart felt, breezes of tales seems to whisper to me lies and deciet. yet i've known truths from the nature around me, clueless it all left me. so i take a step in finding out more, i've made the obvious evident, even the blind could see and the deaf could hear, the dumb shall speak of my own feelings adhere. so at the very end you could feel me.
;
breaking free to something new. =)
