my life is like a jigsaw puzzle mess, it feels pathetic when someone just takes all the pieces and tossed up everything into the air, letting every single piece drop to the ground lke worthless dust sent back to earth. but each piece i need, each piece i must placed them back once again, i want to feel whole, i really want.


i seem to lost a few pieces,
on its way, it might have flew away,
somehow, it flew for a reason,
the wind, my utmost enemy.

so why did you messed up all the pieces?
when i thought the work could be complete,
did you do it out of anger?
or any valid reason you will explain?

so you want to know what each piece meant to me,
each piece meant something different,
like a paragraph to a story,
like lyrcis to a song.

one piece meant my feelings,
the other meant an answer,
another asked a question,
some will tell you more,
two will speak of jealousy,
clueless, you'll see one of greed,
some will be bloodied with hurt,
some cloaked beneath the shining stars,
three will be honoured and bright,
maybe a few will show cracks and scars,
few would be different in sizes,
few could speak in parables,
four would corner my emotions,
a little of them rough,
a little will be colourful,
many of them dull.

all you wanted you fixed it,
because i may be lazy to do them myself,
okay i admit it was an excuse,
because i couldnt do it alone.

neither was i good with being patient,
either was it you or my thoughts,
neither was i ready to make sense,
because you werent yourself at all.

i thank everyone for this jigsaw puzzle set,
because i realise i could never be complete,
each piece will keep coming to me,
eventually till eternally.

but just one more piece for now,
im collecting each back painfully,
hoping to solve jigsaw puzzle myself,
and when i search, hoping to find "you" on it.




if life were a jigsaw puzzle, i would complete it as soon as possible, i wouldnt want to wait, i wouldnt want to keep insisting that its not worth holding on again, because when its complete, or think it is, that "you" piece will vanish and there i go again wandering whats missing, theres so much complications, theres so much confusion, and when "you" comes back, it doesnt fit. but we know the whole puzzle can be messed up once again, and done one more time to complete it.
there is one perfect "you" on earth, well maybe for me to believe it


i think im going off to school to do some work, i cant stay at home, its boring and pathetic, and im not willing to play so much games even though i spent so much time online, ciaos, off i go.




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breaking free to something new. =)