i really wnna give up on it all u know.

i dont know how, i really dont know, show me a sign, really, try to show me a sign. show me that the world will not fall apart when i said i really will try. time and time again, many will grief what lies ahead, and yes i know PROMOS is coming, round the bloody corner. i grief that, i really cant stand how near it is and im totally unprepared. this shows how much troubles of the heart has took a priority in me, i wish it hasnt, and the sight of you, timely after time makes me think, why have i been the fool for? you dont know me, only by the words of others, was it fair to me? was it fair to yourself? paint my emotions, deeply, based on others, they dont feel the hurt, they dont feel the pain, they dont feel how much i may be in vain. i shant cry, neither shall i show my temper, it aint worth it all, i should just ignore.. should i?


u dont know what i want, neither do you know how much i do feel this way, based on the opinion that ure a real nice person, and nothing else. i guess its too much u hear then.



blinded by flames, which sprouted the smoke,
the eyes, painfully, blinded
engulfed, denied,
left there, to burn, to suffocate to die.

i would take your place,
where death meant the last,
a new beginning then,
i'll still watch over you.

why get so upset?
why get so down?
why get tempted to cut thyself?
why cry when u know im here all the time?

and u know how much u mean to me,
every little thing i wanted,
all the time,
all the time.

somewhere in time,
somewhere in mind,
i would still be waiting,
for not one by two to finish the race.

i wouldnt live just to be the disgrace,
though emerge will be only one winner,
the attempt makes you shine,
thats why ure still in me mind.

im sick and tired, all the time,
to keep thining of all this things,
for i gave up many things,
why no return i felt the chore.

i'll come and take you home,
one day, some time,
maybe yes maybe no,
try girl, lead me to your door.

put on the smile,
show that gentle glance,
that cheeky wink,
and that mild hop.

i promise i wont make you sad,
i wont make you cry,
i wont make u feel like you are short,
short of everything that makes u perfect.

i swear you wont be just another one,
i've never made anyone feel that way,
i swear that everything will be alright,
just like what i lived my life with right.

a perfect world?
i rather imperfection,
if not there wont be love,
such a wonderful feeling.

yet it hurts right now,
and i think i know why,
but i try not to make assumptions,
it would just cost me so dear.




went out with jonathan and shawn. took my LOVELY IPOD FROM SCHOOL. HENG AH I SWEAR BABY PODDY I WONT LIVE U BEHIND LIKE THAT! haha. also took shawn's notes. (damn u lucky shit, i left my pod behind if not u dont get ur notes to study. bleah.) went to wheelock macs and had the best talking session (indeed it was studying). okay. then left and i ATE SALAD. HAHA. shit la. the food fair at taka. all MOONCAKES. i thought i could have a FREE FLOW OF FOOD. but the ppl offering food knew we werent potential buyers and i didnt felt good that they knew so YEA. only took a FEW pieces, they are DAMN small, like the size u feed birds with. crumbles i swear.

then god my SALAD. and went to busstop with shawny chin and bussed to thomson plaza. met up with nat and zul. hardly study again and the BK closes. omg la. shit. i feel so wasted. its only a week left. 5 subjects. im so bloody screwed. I NEED A POTENTION STUDY BUDDY. tell me okay. =)

tomorrow gonna meet/study with JANELLE HO XIAO FEI. i swear. if u pangseh me, i'll brutally kill u. hahahahaa. and make sure got space at taka coffee bean, and be early. =) and u better help me with math chem econs shitloads.

ok im gonna sleep. prob gymming with marcus tomorrow! NEED ALL THE RESST I NEED> WR IS OVER AND HELL YEAH. still no partytime, PROMOS PROMOS. study. 2 days one sub. and it be fine, please god, save my sorry ass. please!?




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breaking free to something new. =)