11:15 pm
i love to read stories where always there will be a happy ending, but sometimes those with bad endings seems to make me feel rather excited. well, i dont know, a weird thing i guess.
i cant seem to get UN-SLEEPY in school. haha the library is sooo comfortable. its like... ermm... snortz. >.<
well it seems there are so many influences around you, many of which i believe aint good. and i know i've made so many mistakes in my life, it seems that its unrepentable. i dont seem to be able to stand on my two feet when i think abt it, it just seems futile each time i try. i've really tried, i meant, its dumb its stupid, blame me, make me look like a fool and an asshole, maybe i really am. though i tried changing, i think it was damn long ago since i really did something bad. find reasons to hate me, try,be honest, tell me what about me isnt really good enough, justify and show a reason to show you wouldnt care abt it. maybe all you could do is just to condemn me. i guess it wouldnt make a difference.
im clueless, standing at the pits of remorse and regrets, i think i made a rael bad mistake along the way, and its making it more difficult to say hi. i guess its almost impossible huh.I WANNA SLEEP SOON. YAY YAY YAY! then tomorrow gonna mug hard la.
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breaking free to something new. =)
