i woke up, afraid, so suddenly. engulfed in uncertainty and insecurity of my own bloody instincts. something that im so afraid that would happen. im scared, that i'll make a wrong move, and this i may lose what i may not even have yet. even if it werent mine, at least, to be something to associate with. that special relationship within me to wish for a better future, i dont know. its really hesitating to know that two different spheres of personality clashes and each time, inflicting torrents of wrecking havoc inside me. it keeps saying, dont dont, yet i do want for all im sure. pushing it a little bit more, and again to fall clumsily behind. my mistakes, shown once again, clearly to myself, a problem with my self esteem? rightfully not, my confidence is just making me weaker all over again.




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breaking free to something new. =)