where it comes when i disappear, we wonder, what does existance of another being hold any significance in our lives. paranoid, distraught, angst in dire passion and caught up with reality itself, what more could we ask for than an escapedeeeeeeeeee far farrrr awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. =)


din go night study today. sooo tired. ended up coming home with zul and headed straight to have a shower and on the comp to use. well. it feels great but the thought and reminder of PW suddenly makes me soo sad. SAD. REALLLY SAD. maybe a little less of depressed. but what the hell lar.


Written report sucks. its like, the real thing and gotta do the work so precisely, even if its a draft, i mean, how much time do we really have to do much of the work. ALMOST NO TIME. the final one is like by next friday. DOES IT MEAN NO MORE SLEEPING? NOOO.


i sleeping alot in class. its so horrible. it sucks, GP, sleep, chinese sleep. i mean it doesnt affect much about language foundation but in reality it takes alot to determine the "class attitude". omg i need some pill to keep me awake like 24/7. no way, such pill wont exist. soo what!


OH I DONATED BLOOOD TODAY. Hurhur. i think its damn fun. i mean, getting poked and pricked, then able to draw out those blood that stayed in you for a pretty long time. then recharged and new blood cells are being produced. you feel so whole again, refreshed. totally.. it feels so much better also. great.


i got damn cranky when i get to disturb the others donating blood. harhar. especially those reluctant donators. i mean, YES, reluctance were written over so many of their minds. unfortunately, i skipped only those unncessary period and ended damn early today. so went around disturbing others and passing some time to get my body moving. i enjoy frisbee! haha. well played a little with the odacers than headed back to class and down to the canteen to wait for shawn chin. only kana pangsehed cuz he had WR to do. so bo bian. i met zul and went home. haha. also good la. can REELAXXX =D



you're not alone, in this world,
where there are million of lonely souls,
neither of them appeased,
neither of them satisfied.

i know i was never alone,
becaused i was distracted by your prescence,
i didnt like it, really,
because u didnt bring joy, but fear.

both ways it bring no good,
if it ever succeed, it bring some sort of joy,
some happiness,
its feeling, that is undefiable.

more to your physical arousal,
the mind games we engage,
a battle we wish we won,
often ended up losing, both ways.

words i see have no meaning,
because you say what you always wished,
and opted for the more selfish resort,
careless to what you really needed.

so you think i never caught you looking.
because i myself was,
but i try to keep thinking,
everything will lead to disappointment, eventually.

whats for real anyway?
as we grow we become to cautious,
and aim for perfection we cant achieve,
only to realise, the best we could have gotten.

i only have myself to blame,
for not treasuring my own self respect,
losing the beginning,
ignoring the end.

dont ponder anymore those thoughts,
because it only make things worst,
especially if ure alone,
reminiscing resemblance.

carefully i extract out the passion,
that once was lost,
building a little heart,
that i might give entirely, to you




rugggby training tomorrow. YAY! hmmm ok la. im such an ass and i never go. if wanna achieve something, better work at it now, if not, GOOD GAME (GG) next year. =) i think i might enjoy the role i'll be playing in harhar. after that, its back to track training again and see what i can work else.

its time to study, and its time to play. i aint dull okay. goood.

ok time to CHEONG(phebe see u shuld be honoured i placed ur name here) for my written report. if not. DIE. peace.




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breaking free to something new. =)