i hate it so badly that i cant move around as easily as i can walk. im so pissed off. i really intended to enjoy myself today, but my movements is restricting me. i walked home today from the mrt and i felt stupid, its really difficult and really tiring. sigh.


teachers celebrations was fantastic! i meant, it wasnt a blast or what but i really enjoyed two performances. the dance and the song by amanda tee and deborah. it was reallly good. i enjoyed the dance, i know the hard work they put in and yeah 2 weeks to put that up? haha it was fantastic really! imagine more time was given. definitely better! im proud of the dancers!
JONJON U BETTER GET TO STUDYING PLEASE.
and to amanda tee and deb. u guys are great! amanda support deb more okay! we make her go in for some talentime or singapore idol. NO WORRIES she'll have her abundance of fans! =)


i didnt believe that you would be so near


im starting to question my own priorities now, trying to clarify why am i distracted like totally. it seems when chemistry seemed the essential for attraction, suddenly we start to bring in aspects of spiritual and mindful benefits. ok i dont know what im talking, how to put thoughts into words? hmm it seems. different.


i dont live by poetry,
neither of literature in any sense,
where sheeps and shepards,
know each other at hand.

we grew fonder,
maybe only for me,
where i noticed only you,
and of course, no one else.

and when i see you,
i hope you do not see me,
because i hate it when eyes met,
for it makes me feel... strange.

so whats this feeling all about,
like the gallows i hanged my doubt,
i fear for it may be real,
but fear is only so temporary.

you left me a lasting impression,
something i cant help but hold on,
and its more than meets the eye,
wouldnt it happen?

i couldnt help but look from afar,
every single opportunity,
when you were near,
i couldnt help but look away.

my heart is throbbing,
my fist clenching,
hands trembling,
why?

a slight headache,
wondering what caused it,
dont worry it aint your fault,
it was just my silly insecurities.

the way u danced,
the way u sing,
the way u speak,
moments passed so fast.

maybe a little longer,
maybe a little more time,
when we couldnt take it,
i'd say hello.



scold me or hate me, why do you all judge me. just because everyone is so afraid that "i", "you", "we" come from that hated species. those we stereotyped. but cant we be a little less of who we are, a little more of what we should be, or a little like God, just a little okay?


i dont know, i wont ever be good enough, or even a little fit to be yours. i dont see why esteem plays a part in this, isnt it realistic enough? what do i have to offer but my own love. why? is my little insecurity and pessimistic likeness causing me to falter once again? honestly, do you want to know?
this time, im willing to suffer another heartbreak because of you

peace.




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breaking free to something new. =)