hmmmm i feel like writing a little something about happiness. =)

Happiness

dreams i dream of nightmare it goes,
way away the thoughts that flows,
come to me this sweet imagination of mine,
my emotions i feel so sudden sublime.

carry forward i pray to God,
my life it breaks apart distraught,
but every single thing you see in me,
i know u'll forgive in time of thee.

merciful i shall say to you,
fear is what we are borin to feel,
paintings those talent they drew,
those tender kisses how awfully they flew.

so past is past,
whats over is done for,
my life i rejoice i lived renew,
my lord my god my strength in you.

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i believed in something today,
it never made me felt this way,
but what so different from ever before,
was each time i saw you i turned to the floor.

what was inflicted it pulled me back,
my head so heavy and filled with regret,
but what would i missed if i didnt try,
i would bear the pain even if it was a lie.

suck those bad air out of me,
relive those memories i sought with glee,
and remember those lessons i learnt so far,
and those drinking sessions at the bar.

flee the mind escape within,
i may be confused to what i want,
to who this message be posted to whom,
i wrote it wholeheartedly to you.

tell me tell me, tell me again,
that the world dont revolve the same,
in each time it changes its course,
just like the way you got rid of remorse?

i jumped a thousand miles away,
hopping to salvation you say,
but it was more to that this eventful day,
where eyes met to childish play.

so you wanna know you wanna think,
that all my actions brought about a link,
that i was true this time along,
what you think you may not be wrong.

you must promise to take a step back,
and see whats on the other side,
it aint vast but just a little,
im willing to hold and wait, just a little.

kiss me baby you sweet little thing,
is that what happiness shall bring?
no never, not this time,
knowing you will love me taste better than wine.

so it counts down to all those sacrifices,
how much youre willing to endear a smile,
bring forth those eagerness i see,
to fulfill our mindful spree.

hold my hands, and you will know,
firmly i promise i wont let go,
this all i say for now,
happiness begins this time right now.



we must never choose to define time, because someday, it will measure us instead, for we become too caught up with the present and worry for the future, we dont realise that it takes a step now, and in the end, what lies ahead, we'ill be holding each others hands and saying, yes we'll pull throught.
such sweet thoughts, hopefully such a person exists.




im wondering where those two faced people went, or rather how they came into my life, maybe i realise why im drifting from those whom are reluctantly close to me physically, i chose to believe that they love to judge for what the do not know. but what the heck one may say, to others NABEICCB he swore so often. but i doubt it be pleasant anytime sooner, cuz the others care, while many doubt, envious, jealousy, chose not to believe.
but who cares anyway?
being a social burden brought out the true colours of many, while i couldnt stand many who put pride before them, big shots they think, well i DONT CARE DO I? complaining only makes matters worst, indulging in those sinful pleasures they receive such satisfaction. but WHO CARES AGAIN? i dont think its worth my two cents bit anymore. i shall not complain, i just lived with it, it be a good experience to see fools grow to becomes beggars, while many grow to succeed without dignity and intergrity, a curse i shall not wish for, retribution will earn its rightful place among you people.


say what you like,
do as you please,
only one person knows everything,
maybe another i count myself in,
judging the way you all do things,
i realise trust was such an impossible thing,
gossips and anger flew across,
a slap you endure if u cross the line,
the border between emotional endurance,
much more of pain that we see,
or limitations to irritation,
i dont care anymore, really,
many of you, reading this now,
this a message im sending to you.
bring it on, you people pose challenges, maybe a little more, but dont you realise, you're making me see that in this world, you draw the line between upright snobs who suck and people offering themselves to earn their place.


oh no! tomorrow got shitloads of test and stuff. CHEM TEST AND CHEM SPA, ECONS TEST AFTER SCHOOL. im screwed. ike beeeg timeee. i dont like it, i dont like it, but wells, like i said, its just part of life.


walking has been a difficulty, a lesson learnt indeed. but i learn to apprecaite many things, and to know that frustration builds determination and perseverance, as well as tolerance. to people who are true, thanks a hell loads. =)


okay good nights. PROMOS are coming. and i its stressful. i dont like it.


hey girl, i wanna bring you happiness, i cant bring you perfection, im not perfect, but all it takes i'll try, i'll give you my sincerity, my everything. only time will tell




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breaking free to something new. =)