welll today. SMASHED CAKE to SOME PEOPLE. BRENDA AND JESSICA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO HOR. =)

night study with shawn chin, shawn yeo and nathaniel. hah! yay! buddies man. finally got some muggerheads to mugg with tomorrow. hurhur. oh jordan and jonathan please come too okayyy. studyyy.

these pretty intensive studying gets in my head alot. woooo headache go away. let me curse u and buzzz off =)


im so tired of saying certain things, it just not acting like the remedy i thought it would act, its just making matters worst.


it would be so painful to keep forgetting things, and yet so painful remembering them? so what am i were to do with what i've done? to let them go or to keep them. its just simply said in mere words what we are going to do with out lives, but each passing moment we are struggling with the fact that we are making decisions all the time. and when we spend time thinking and coming up with conclusions, we draw too many ideas that we ourselves cannot comprehend.



when i think of you, its the same, but a little more complex and a little more complicated. like a thorn not meant to be touched but accompanied by a beauty so irresistable. like sweet honey to a bee. i cant seem to let go gently of the impression you left behind, not mere words shall speak but tongues of your mesmerism. each memory purely candid and each picture magnificantly displacing my fears. but the carefree, that freedom, that inittiative instilled in us, disappoints me. slowly, it build high walls of insecurity and skeptism. but who cares in this world, where only the selfish will exist. i shall not live to believe in being selfless, why should i believe in doing whats right when doing wrong makes u feel so much better. my mind cant keep still anymore, because u just keep spinning rounds in my head, like ecstacy, like the air lingering for my every breath. i couldnt find this emotions or energy running through me anymore, like before, feeling so dead, so relent in desiring what i shouldnt. so tell me what, what should i do, please, dare say, like i do, dare to feel, and try just a little more.



care to tell your story? i'll sit by and listen.
care to share your secret? i'll lock in my heart.
well thats if i have one to spare, maybe its too depleted, maybe it just lost all the love it can give, maybe, i should just give up on this race i shouldnt have started.




thats all i think is worth fighting for.
that little bit i knew wont last long.
in that case, i shouldnt have thought about it.
but my stubborness brought me to your shoes.
i demand that you put your arms around me.
i demand that you stay by me.
i demand that you whisper your sweet longings.
maybe in the life of long long ago.





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breaking free to something new. =)