i liked the theme of choices and happiness.

well basically i believed that happiness cannot be reached just like that. we wont know what happiness can bring unless there is sorrow. we can only feel happiness when we know how to feel the sadness. so its just comparison of two different opposites where it takes time to start differentiating between the two.




i did go mad in awesome praise, i would love to live up the spirits, and im trying so hard, to go back to what i though was most convincing for me to do. i always loved the worship, living me on high, as usual, it kept me wanting more, my faith thus increasing. but how is it going to matter when god u kept pushing me away? was it a message i misinterpretated wrongly? was it a test i must go through so that my perseverence was what you really wanted me to push on for. my determination faltered in front of your eyes. sorry doesnt seem to work.


i felt that god was speaking to me all along and i chose to refuse to listen to him. This aint al about talking to only God, why do i relate everything to him, why do we even do good things? why?
for our future
we do fear u
conscience? hardly a role at all.



I MADE SOME NEW RESOLUTIONS! and im happy that ive succeeded in it!
-to be less judgemental,
-to take thigs more lightly
-to have more fun
-to be more carefree
-to think less


i can smile to myself a little more.



i hate it when ppl do become more judgemental to me when they dont even know me well. i mean classmates of mine, i really hate to believe that u guys cannot change, but a bunch of igorant-think-you-know-it-all bitches, screw off kay, everyone has a limit, u hit mine. i'll burn yours. similarly its a warning to many others. i know.


what would you do?
what would you think?
what would you feel?
if i came by your way.

in this world where everything is so judgemental, i will try not to be and make a little difference. i've burnt my sin away




;
breaking free to something new. =)