so if it was killing me, u dont know about me as well. i dont wanna think anymore, i dont wanna out on a front. sorry.

i'll let music speak for me today.


so it seems that thers more to say then the look in our eyes, arent we so stupid?



TELL ME EVERYTHING
just surrender


Just one more hour
and I'll know the truth that separates the right
from all the wrong feelings that
You have about me your grace is distracting me

White out the memories
of each sarcastic shot you took at me
With your hurtful tones and biting melodies

Just one more outburst
and I'm leaving you like you left me one year ago
and I know that this could never be an apology from you

A meaning buried
under shuttered breathing
Its taking too long for me to spit it out

Tell me everything will be alright
Close your eyes and dream of me tonight
Tell me that you won't just fade away
Cross my heart and hope to die tonight I'll dream my pain away

I'll let the lack of words speak for me
the way I am I can't express or understand
I'll take the time now to make you see
You'll see

Tell me everything will be alright
Close your eyes and dream of me tonight
Tell me that you won't just fade away
Cross my heart and hope to die tonight I'll dream my pain away

I see through your lies, they're bleeding from your eyes.

Tell me everything will be alright
Close your eyes and dream of me tonight
Tell me that you won't just fade away
Cross my heart and hope to die, I'm on my way

Tell me everything will be alright
Close your eyes and dream of me tonight
Tell me that you won't just fade away
Cross my heart and hope to die tonight I'll dream my pain away




so emotions were meant to be toyed? like the way ure gonna sing the next song to me?



You tell a tale
just surrender


I search your words,
Fish for breaks in every line.
You say you paint a picture in my mind.
I'm paying attention to detail,
And searching for any misleading ideas
You tell a tale.
One grand enough to carry me away

'Cause I know where you've been,
And I know what you've done with him.
I hope its worth what we lost.
Take your time with your goodbyes,
'cause this will be the last time
I stand by with eyes closed tight.

And it's hard to know,
If I had caught this months ago.
I could have faced myself,
Saved myself from this disease.
It's killing me faster,
With every single second you are gone.
You needed an answer but when i said, "yes"
I meant "forevermore!"

'Cause I know where you've been,
And I know what you've done with him.
I hope its worth what we lost.
Take your time with your goodbyes,
'cause this will be the last time
I stand by with eyes closed tight.

I look into your eyes
and see that your colors changing
i wish that i could change with you
and when you said forever did you mean it to be true?
or was it another tale from you?

I look into your eyes
and see that your colors changing
i wish that i could change with you
and when you said forever did you mean it to be true?
or was it another tale from you?

I look into your eyes
and see that your colors changing
i wish that i could change with you
and when you said forever did you mean it to be true?
or was it another tale from you?

I look into your eyes
(From You, From You)
and see that your colors changing
(From You, From You)
i wish that i could change with you
(From You, From You)
and when you said forever did you mean it to be true?
(From You, From You)
or was it another tale from you?




so i was trying to be freaking normal. maybe i was trying so hard to tell you that i was trying too hard. but i dont know, i really dont know how and what i can do to tell u that u mean more than just anything else to me. dont u know it hurts, each time i know more of what i shouldnt know. it huts so freaking much and u get me out of my seat, cursing each bloody time i made a mistake.


This is a call
Thousand foot krutch


She fooled all of her friends,
Into thinking she’s so strong,
But she still sleeps with the light on,
And she acts like it’s all right on,
As she smiles again
And her mother lies there sick with cancer,
And her friends don’t understand her,
She’s a question without answers,
Who feels like falling apart


She knows, she’s so much more than worthless,
But she needs to find her purpose,
She wonders what she, did to deserve this and...


She’s calling out to You,
This is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down,
I reach out to you
And I’m losing all control now,
And my hazard signs are all out,
I’m asking you, to show me what this life, is all about


And he tells everyone a story,
Because he thinks his life is boring,
And he fights, so you won’t ignore him,
Because that’s his biggest fear
And he cries, but you’ll rarely see him do it,
And he loves, but he’s scared to use it,
So he hides behind the music,
Cause he likes it that way


And he knows, he‚s so much more than worthless,
He needs to find the surface,
'Cause he’s, starting to get nervous


He’s calling out to You,
This is a call, this is a call out,
Everytime I fall down,
I reach out to you
And I’m losing all control now,
And my hazard signs are all out,
I’m asking you, to show me what this life, is all about.


Have you ever felt this way before?
'Cause I don’t want to hide here anymore,
Take me to a place where nothing’s wrong, and,
Thanks for coming, shut the door.
And they say someone out there sees us,
Well if you’re real then save me Jesus,
'Cause I’ve been this way, for far too long,
I wasn’t meant, to feel alone


Now I’m calling out to You,
This is a call, this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down,
I reach out to you
And I’m losing all control now,
And my hazard signs are all out,
I’m asking you, to show me what this life, is all about
show me what this life, is all about


so this spells the end of my own efforts to reach out to you. because i know i have been trying all along, and in my efforts, i as dispelled by the pressure around me and the gossips going around. dont u know it hurts so freaking much as you see how convenient to say that it doesnt mean anything. it just hurts so bloody much, it does, cant u see it.

a note to you
so it has been more than a trecherous journey for you, because i dont know what had happen to you at all, but i do care, and i dont seem to have a chance to. sometimes, i get so paranoid, u dont see that i have to be who i am, to be who you see. but cant know my insides instead. so it wouldnt bring as much pain as before. but cant u acknowledge im taking such small steps because of my phobia of falling. despite my fear which just wont go away, im still trying, it may seem nothing to you, but it means every step that i take. i wont ask for another chance, i just dont want to lose this bloody friendship which is nothing at all at this moment of time.

it freaking hurts so badly


so what abt the A level listening compre. it hurts so fucking bad, i dont give a fuck about it at all. u just dont see it like i do.




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breaking free to something new. =)