HAPPY YOUTH DAY!

i've never learnt to appreciate my youth. well not really though. i feel an old EIGHTEEN. totally legal and aint fun in breakin the rules anymore. =(
what a wasted life i lived


you were there to make my feel young,
to make me fel wanted to badly,
to entice me with those kisses of yours,
that pleasing warm hug,
the affirmation of your touch,
the bite which exposed your love.


it was history, something i learn in school also, to remember that the mistakes of the past shall not be repeated in the future, what mistakes i havent made, i've learn to think, to know that each action leads to a much undesire consequence. i've learnt to appreciate the next second of my life.

its nearing the 1 year i swore never to fall in love. it seems like when this date is coming, it feels like, im falling in all sorts of temptations. i feel like im breaking free to something wrong. the devil's call for me to commit the same mistakes, to bruise my integrity and let down my pride, all in the direction, far away from god. we bore the cause for our desires, each time we fade away, we end up getting thorned by the consequences we never wanted to bear, we keep thinking that it'll work, well at last for me. we work the work and break those rules to keep it going, for what in the first place?

we promised not to slit nor slash thy burden unto thee, for pain overcome the barrier existing within us, hoping that our mortal bodies can anguish the spiritual pain, i guess the assurance wasnt enough. your promise was just a joke, entirely


a year went on, a year its coming, a months time. i wonder what i've done. i think it was much productive. sigh. suddenly i dont wanna talk abt it. screw my fickle minded mind with my emotions getting the better of me now.

i will not pick off where we left off and i wanna move on.
i wanna say i love you,
i wanna say i miss you,
i wanna say i care for you,
each time, it hurts to much,
its because when i say it,
i meant every word so true.



to appreciate the world i live in now, i gotta appreciate myself, then to the ppl arond me, then to my world that i live in, to this world, we made this world, where society overcomes the physical terrain. i would definitely do anything for my better future.

3 weeks left for me to fulfill my first promise in this world.




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breaking free to something new. =)