hmmmmmm. blue oh mondayyy blue.

so tis 6am. ad its eom editing time! HMMMMMM. i cant seem to know what to edit or not. it feels miserably frustrating to know that u had insufficient words at first then when u write write write. linking all the stuff, when u overshot by a mile. i feel like i left out this entire part of the "linky" part in the EoM.


imma hate doing workz.
imma dislikez sleeping latez.
imma grumpyz researchez.
imma want to killz EoMz.



its rotten luck to know im leader for PW. HEY GROUPIES where are you all? u get one lazy bum, one one so busy with external stuff and 2 people heavily involve in church activities. i mean. im equally that bad. and im seem to be doing all the freaking work alone.

im finally getting my ass down to work and stuff, but its like, why am i feeling all alone when im doing all this work. why am i feeling that i've thrown away so much of my life doing things for the better of others? tellll meeee whyyyyy.


to think of tonight sucks. training then history assignment and gotta be in school at 6.45. mercy dont come cheap. but help dont come cheaper either, neither does it even come by by its ownself. its frigging irritating! but well. call me panda chan by the end of the week. i jus do al the work by muhhhselllf.




why run when u got the precious gems,
you were better off with me then,
its all does not mean anything,
never meant a single damn thing tonight.

so trying not to forget,
which was so much better left alone,
trying not to kid yourself,
or comfort what didnt mean anything.

pathetic lies portrayed everyday,
your dressing speaks so differently,
so my judgement has been pretty bad lately,
its because i dont care.



ROAR> bath time. screw eom la. i think i write more later tonights. deadline is tomorrow. so is history assignment plus chem test.

OH HOLY COWS AND BULL NOSE RINGS! later got econs test. byebye aaron. ure officially a fulltime screwed student in cjc.


whats worst then falling deeper into misery with you all along.




;
breaking free to something new. =)