omgosh. today was sleepy day. the day started so horribly for me. badbad. i slept at 2 plus and woke at 5. did abit more for eom. and rushed down to school for history remedial only to get sent back to class to do the work. really din had time to do the assignment and wasnt even allowed to stay to hear anything. sigh. i felt damn frustrated lar. if i knew i could have woken up an hour later and shawn would have fetched me to school. irritating. im sooo pissed off. nextnext, first period was SD and it was pretty touching to learn about elderly. i mean it keeps me thinking at least and not falling alseep. but well, nature took its toil and i was droooping off in econs lecture. furthermore, i was dozing off multiple times and the teacher woke me up. lucky sorta know him and he din make fun of me. it was exceptionally fine during break only i had GP supplememntary during break. then i chionged my food only to be dozing off a few times during the break at the studying corner. goshhh. again!. econs tutorial was it man, half the lessons i was awake and the latter half, i was just in deep sleep and the freaking class made their way down to the LT for chem test and left me behind. well minhang woke me up at least. sweets. went to the LT and everyone gave me the good morning stares, wahlau. suckslar. then the whole chem test its horrible, its soo horrible that i dont know how to do anything, gosh. im so uselesss lar. i mean, its an easy paper but the brain aint functioning either way. worst, i sat at the last row in lt 3 and there was this metal railing at the corner in which i could rest my head... dozed off again. well, of course the 1 hr passed fast because i was inbetween random naps. argh. last period was math and somehow i was wide awake. well, cuz i thought i really needed to buck up? i mean a U grade. argh. so sian. so well, i did my work and was the only period awake. after that, left to the library to do work first. was suppose to meet denis but yeah she ended an hour later. oo0o0o0o cailing came along laters. but wells, i had to rush off for mat remedial. sick timing sia. like 4-5. when ure dismissed at 2. but goood i say, at least it makes me study. studied till around 6. i was about to finish my econs perfect comp of advantages and stupid nathaniel chan got to disturb and off went the lights. THANKS AR NAT CHAN. _|_


i was talking to chris today and we were discussing how crude and sucky the freaking class is. so many selfish ppl. sometimes u wonder why they so nice and sometimes so self centred. it feels like t33 only existed like temporary. like what the bloody hell. who cares after that? i dont know. but its great to get along with other class peeps. HURRR. guys dinner on friday. well. unless i got a date. HARHAR. i will pangseh the guys for a dinner with my date. HAHA. aiya. im talking like a toot seriouslyyyy. but im super high now. its like the feeling of rushing is over. the last 2 weeks was pathetic. seriously pathetic. i mean i train almost 4-5 times we week. and wwelll, im tired most of the time, with 3-4 history assignements to hand up including the research assignment regarding a NON taught topic yet. its freaking hard making ur work valid. you'll literally pull ur hair out and kill whoever had set the paper, but i dont know the setter, lucky you.

so the conversation between chris made me feel that im not alone in this class sorta thing. haha. i mean its better to know that at least he aint the only guy who is feeling rather left out. awesome. =) SAOSIN, RJA, STROKES, AFI and MCR plays in my IPODS. i think nothing else except the few songs of thousand fot crutch, far away by nickelback and chris daughtry. i need new sounds in my life. and i was saosin the first album or what and and arja 2 full albums in all. i hate listeing to just bits and pieces of everything. im a music freak and dont deprive me okay. i dont like. ROAR!

I PAMPERED myself with a FOOTLONG subway italian bmt. in which didnt help to my diet of good and healthy food. i ORDERED WHEAT. so its HEALTHY. =) and lotsa veggie but sinfully i added 2 sauces. HARHAR.

i wonder, why people can be so selfish in my class, they only know how to say stuff like "aiya ppl like fail cuz u always sleep in class" what the fuck. im seriously hurt by this statement. but they do not know in fact they are freaking selfish. like when u fell down who helped u rub ur leg and iced it for u, or when u need stuffs in class and i will unconditionally help u. or when u asked a favour that i will do it even if i hated u. i dont think im taken for granted without gratitude a rather nice thing to do. u wont want me to flare up people. just be nice, u wont want to bring my cat high attitude to cjc. =) a reminder to god to remind ur guardian angels to remind you guys to be more thoughtful.

and this post i think is long BECAUSE I FEEL MORE RELAXED. and i actually napped just now. i mean, i lay on my bed awhile and ZzzZzzZzz. harhar! i think i shall sleep more, if not im dying.

sometimes i really wanna help the ppl around me and hopefully they help me too. like those ppl i helped in their history assignments. i feel a sense of satisfaction that i helped someone and even if takes up my time. i aint complaining, i aint really, its just that i didnt like self centred and HARD TO PLEASE ppl coming to me and telling me that i dont deserve to pass because of my attitude in class of dozing off uncontrollably. i guess such people just have no sense of conscience and proper thinking. immature i say, immature.


ohh i feel something written in my head, i guess its directed from my heart. out it goessss...






the first step i took,
was a simple gesture of letting down pride,
eventually,
i wish to draw more than glances to you girl.

so we pretend the world doesnt exist,
but we couldnt be more obvious than that,
its scary sometimes,
what goes through my mind.

maybe i know all along,
everything,
however i shall not dictate events,
i believe it should happen with the flow.

i did like you to reply that gesture,
maybe soon,
it hurts waiting miserably,
in my own silly and little way.

so i got my own suppport,
little less of my own two feet,
but really, what u see of now,
isnt anything but a physical form of my soul.

so unity is inseparable,
but what is holding us back?
fear?
that intense grip or wrath right through the veins.

so let the heart beat,
the sound ever so deep,
but ure okay with every single thing,
your eyes, each time it contacts gave you away.

so is that what we are looking forward?
is that what we are hoping for more each day,
more hints and promises,
but yet feeble to our dealings.

no one aint gonna throw the dice,
cuz love aint the game like cat and mice,
so we have to move sooner,
honestly, i've been missing it all.

so baby, we'll made the move already on each other,
i wont complicate it anymore,
yeah you got it right there,
and you know, its like that all along.

free to be,
always been for awhile it seems,
i guess your glances caught my eye,
somehow, you've tripped my from afar already.




appealing? so mind sensing and heart throbbing in this mental state of preparation not only for promos but for someting else for me. its soooo coool. tomorrow seems slack, but i dont feel like rugbying. reaalllly. i dont feel like, i dont really lik the sport, but for friends sake. i hope i dont play forward. no way. if not, im most prob quitting.

i must study hard hard hard means more time at the library and more skipping of training sessions! but of course. i'll still go down and train once awhile. but well, MORE STUDY SESSIONS at the library! =) okok off to continue my work. and i've totally stopped reading harry potter. argh. well. i wish i could ask u out. but i think it takes more balls.



i believe in nothing that could stop us at all, it seems today was jus little steps we were willing to take, dont you. silly. you make me feel so shy. =)




;
breaking free to something new. =)