i awoke today only to feel my palms seating and my heart racing fast. i dont know why. but i had a nightmare. a nightmare of that repeated scene of anguish.


i fell to the flooor,
battered and bruised,
i looked up and i saw no one,
but the shadow of myself.

i walked step by step,
a single movement without help,
by myself all alone,
staggering, helplessly.

my integrity questioned,
my pride fallen,
my stride broken,
the love lost.

i looked back,
every 7 steps,
hoping u were there,
hoping u'll think of me at least.

why was it me,
to commit to this foolish past,
where i chosen to let go,
and yet i think of you again.

my nightmare its over,
a dream meant to break,
when ure awake,
back to reality.

reality is pain, reality sucks,
memories are treasures,
either sustained or forgotten,
nor remebered for hate.

the damage u have done,
i wished for that gentle,
that gentle healing,
only you can give.

i daresay how i feel,
i daresay it to be true,
i daresay it be different,
i daresay it right now.

im thinking,
im no longer confuse,
because i realise,
that i really like you.



CHEM SPA IN LIKE OMGFGZXZXZXZX 3 hours time.
1 hour mugg it.
1 hours prep
1 hour go school.

HUAHUAHUAHUAHUA. =)

a song to think abt it. a song that speaks of the society that so many are so aware of. i'll ask not for love but for commitment, for love is just a feeling meant to be change. i love you. what it means. its nothing with the commitment many failed to lived up to. disappointments met daily.

ANBERLIN
the feel good drag


"I'm here for you" she said
and we can stay for awhile,
my boyfriends gone,
we can just pretend.
Lips that need no introduction
Now whos the greater sin,
Your drab eyes seem to invite
(tell me darling) Where do we begin.

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands

Everyone in this town
is seeing someone else
Everybody tired of someone
our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now
I'm tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
You littlest sin

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands

Failure is your disease
You broke my heart my joy
You brought my greatest failure
Discourse won't save yourself

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your Kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your Lips
Your Lies
Your Lust
Like the devils in your hands



think about it. think about it. what do we want in life? a fruitful experience or a million meaningless flings. iratherbewithyounonly =) hurhur.




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breaking free to something new. =)