hmmmmmm later got CHMA =D going to see the guys and a small get together before the music awards concert actually starts. =)

the reunion of the chs guys.. damn i miss u guys loads man.

so bored now. just slacking and doing nothing really until later when meeting shawn and hansen at j8. yawns. dinner then to the school. hurhurhur.



if only time could turn a single round back to where we met, it would have been easier if i had been my more daring self. a coward it seemed, curse me with those harsh words. though it hurts quite badly, it didnt help a single bit. never my confessions.



Anberlin
Foreign language

Boys speak in rhythm, and girls in code
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Tell it to me straight, give it to me now
Face forward, face forward.

Boys speak in rhythm, and girls in code
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Tell it to me straight, give it to me now
Face forward, face forward.

Speaking foreign language, nothing I can translate
Speaking foreign language, nothing I can dictate
You're speaking foreign lang-, language.

Boys speak in rhythm and girls just lie
Doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Tell me how you feel, come out of the dark
And we can head back home and I'll know where to start.

Speaking foreign language, nothing I can translate
Speaking foreign language, nothing I can dictate
You're speaking foreign lang-, language.

Nothing I can translate
You're speaking foreign language.

Where did we go wrong?
We need medication for this miscommunication
Where did we go wrong?
Our conversation's weakened, conversation's weakened.

Boys speak in rhythm and girls in code,
Boys speak in rhythm and girls just lie.



so are we in this case where we generalise and say things that doesnt mean anything to us? where i believe in this world where we know how we stand on our own two feet. it does make a difference when we question our own intergrity to commit that single spectre of hope that i perceive in my own eyes. where many would get so gutsy about how they feel towards it, i wonder if it will remain true to the very end. maybe the lack of self esteem wil conclude to the terrible fears that resides in side of me, maybe it was the battle scars that are still inflicting itself continously, so what if it is true, does it matter to you? maybe if u could tell me, what really matters, maybe if you could tell me that i do matter. we wont be two blind lovebirds flying aimlessly building the nest to bury our emotions, to flee to another destination, hoping to start anew again. yet falling miserably to our own mistakes, ending up repeating this cycle once again.

i wont condemn, i wont despise. i will only wait, yet another fool, foolishly waiting for you. you may and may not know who you are, maybe i wish you know who you will be and who you might be what i want you to be. confused? read a million times, maybe it'll make some sense.


we dont need to get
flusttered with impatience,
dont event think of a bet,
to succumb to your incompetence.

the divine recollections,
based widely on the past,
your biased perceptions,
u said them too fast.

so i was supposed to make
the move you looked forward to,
maybe i never did,
never did deserve it.

dont you know,
what you said,
still rang in my head,
over and over again.

it was not abt the past,
but this present moment.
it kept me thinking,
so hard all over again.

should i make my move?
should i stay alive,
give me that assurance,
just that one fucking time.

i swore to tell the truth,
but u hid behind the lies,
metaphors we used to describe,
the daily reasoning of our lives.

so what was i mean to be,
if i thought i had found love,
we are still strangers,
unknown to each other.

maybe the only thing i knew,
was a picture of you in my head,
maybe the only thing u knew,
is whatever u see right here.


so what i want? and what i need? days gone by, alone in this empty seat. i thought of you all along, i dont think i deserve your harsh leashes of words. it might drive me to insanity




;
breaking free to something new. =)