well. chinese paper is over. im glad im studying and stuff. but im not doing well. its not enough work though. sighhh.

had training today. omgz. so happy finally flying 46 metres. but i shall not get too complacent. =)


THOUSAND FOOT krutch
this is a call


She fooled all of her friends,
Into thinking she’s so strong,
But she still sleeps with the light on,
And she acts like it’s all right on,
As she smiles again
And her mother lies there sick with cancer,
And her friends don’t understand her,
She’s a question without answers,
Who feels like falling apart

Pre-Chorus

She knows, she’s so much more than worthless,
But she needs to find her purpose,
She wonders what she, did to deserve this and...

Chorus

She’s calling out to You,
This is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down,
I reach out to you
And I’m losing all control now,
And my hazard signs are all out,
I’m asking you, to show me what this life, is all about


And he tells everyone a story,
Because he thinks his life is boring,
And he fights, so you won’t ignore him,
Because that’s his biggest fear
And he cries, but you’ll rarely see him do it,
And he loves, but he’s scared to use it,
So he hides behind the music,
Cause he likes it that way

Pre-Chorus

And he knows, he‚s so much more than worthless,
He needs to find the surface,
'Cause he’s, starting to get nervous

Chorus

He’s calling out to You,
This is a call, this is a call out,
Everytime I fall down,
I reach out to you
And I’m losing all control now,
And my hazard signs are all out,
I’m asking you, to show me what this life, is all about.

Bridge

Have you ever felt this way before?
'Cause I don’t want to hide here anymore,
Take me to a place where nothing’s wrong, and,
Thanks for coming, shut the door.
And they say someone out there sees us,
Well if you’re real then save me Jesus,
'Cause I’ve been this way, for far too long,
I wasn’t meant, to feel alone

Chorus

Now I’m calling out to You,
This is a call, this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down,
I reach out to you
And I’m losing all control now,
And my hazard signs are all out,
I’m asking you, to show me what this life, is all about
show me what this life, is all about (2 times)



this song i love it. two different souls. to make a difference. someday i hope, the difference will be resolved.

i wonder what people see in meaningless relationships, superficial, i love you, and i miss you. i dont get it that it never works, no matter how hard we try. are we even suppose to try in the first place? why on earth must we get so hurt just to please the other party? and run away from the problems. guess my words that are here, should stay.


heavy rainfall,
misty pitfalls,
under the starfalls,
time doesnt stalls.

we see the difference you make,
we see the problems we face,
we see the love to break,
yet those ies so fake.

why we got together,
those memories none remember,
my heart i surrender,
a fool so despicable.

i promised you i did,
but insufficient for your greed,
my actions so sweet,
only seen a necessary deed.

what am i to you?
who was i to you?
when then you needed me,
i was there blindly.

you questioned my sincerity,
i gave my assurance
you doubt my ability,
in front of my appearence.

why did you cheat on me?
why did you cheat on me.
why did you cheat on me,
why did you cheat on me.

spare a thought for me,
even i became so insignificantly
to you at all,
what was my worth?

what is love what is love?
its just a feeling,
its just those faded promises,
we lack the commitment.

maybe i should have died,
long long time ago,
your heart i swore to reach,
it broke beyond the breach



i dont wanna think that i like you. its silly i dont know you at all. my ordinary stranger. i want to run away, i want to hide. i want to know i aint worth living, to torture to live and then to die. i wonder what difference does it actually make for me to try and convince my ownself. that it wouldnt work anymore.


i became shy
i became afraid
i became skeptical
i became sensitive
i became colder



i wanna say i love you again
i wanna say i do care
i wanna say that i will hold faithful
i wanna say that we share
i wanna say we grow old together



when
where
how



i dont know,
i wish i knew,
but when i see you
well, im afraid.



what we do what we really want in life, i wish time can tell me what to do now and then and to know the future.


tomorrow got training again. argh. im training like almost everyday. im tired. but i dont mind, i really dont mind, it keeps my mind occupied. it keeps me away from getting hurt. i daresay, i did my best all the time, i dont deserve that hurt for another year.




;
breaking free to something new. =)