Would you make a difference?
would you tell me why?
would you affirm me?
would you even say hello?
would you think?


maybe i got the mood for one last poem.
maybe not.


clearly we would think of the necessities of life. its sudden when u start thinking of reallly scary things that wakes you up in different phases of life. its now i feel, everything is starting to haunt me.


i felt a million pieces of memories were fold against once more and swept into my head. it breached its comfort zone and it went deep into my heart. fear, anxiety and frustration gripped me once again. i dont want to feel this any longer, what should i do? i stared blankly into space, motionless and cold, i dont want to end this life i think is so precious to me, a life i see with my own eyes but not with my soul.
i felt it


i dont know why im in this position of understanding the differences we ought to know. the difference in differentiating between whats real and not, something that makes u another person in your own image and without doubt carelessly committing the crimes you do not want to do at all.


scattering pieces of memories back into its fragmentation, i dont see why it suddenly came back to me, to haunt me again. i wish you were here but you never will exist with me. never. its been a long year, of thinking and soul searching. i dont know, its not about being ready either.


i know people always change, sometimes for worst and sometimes for better. some still stayed the same. always and i know who they are. i aint perfect either but i do wish to condemn yet praise some of them. a prayer i say, specially for you people. may it wont be a curse upon you for no greater good shall be done.



i wasted a day today. read abit but did some workout. stuff and i decided to take a nap. now im sorta worried about tomorrow's GP paper. preparation for GP has been the slackiest. its really worrying but guess thats my part and parcel of this miserable life.



we do take glimpse of each other. but is it enough? we could be strangers for now, but strangers forever? it wouldnt bother you if it really means nothing to you at all.




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breaking free to something new. =)