its such a long day. i mean, there are so much to do and so little time to find time to relax. i mean i shuldnt count the time that i had to get to walk around and talk, but its jus that i dont find anymore satisfaction in what im doing. more and more i persist in finding.

i dont see why anyone shuld hide anything from anyone in the first place, because i know that for what i need to do, i always tried my best and never would i think of looking back.



this few days are really awkward for me, i guess im pushing myself too much and really fell too hard for my own comfort. i guess it doesnt matter, it wasnt like before that someone was there for me. i shuld get used to the feeling, even after so long, accustomed to the feeling that i dont deserve anything else anymore.

maybe i felt peace when im with you. from today onwards i try very hard not to think of you. i dont know how, i dont know what can i do. but i'll try. because i dont like this one sided feeling that i know will bring me nowhere.


i think this is it, i wanna concentrate and do my best in my commitments. i know its impossible between the two of us because we barely know each other, yet im willing to be the fool for you. i dont see any progress, cuz im always running away. maybe just seeing you, is all that i deserve. maybe being with you, was jus a dream after all.




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breaking free to something new. =)