SOOO TIREDDDD!

today was magnificantly good. cuz... its a short day. YAY! and and and.. i did some really good gymming haha. yay! 27kg bicep curls sitting down. awsome. was painful haha. damn proud of myself luhhh.

then was with tiongchew we went to go eat dinner at TP. i love the ban mian and the goreng pisang haha! now feel damn full.

school work is stressful and im feeling the load. its totally crazy with muggers around. worst still. i think im struggling with math and chem. argh. gotta put in more effort. im like always sleepy and going toilet wash my face. cannot tahan ahh.

tomorrow is my reach cambridge thing. shitttto! im so nervous... sad thing is i gotta go school at 9. sian lor. i hope i do well tomorrow, if not... i will be really disappointed. sighh. stress larhhh...



i dont whether to be sad, i dont know if i shuld... maybe i jus write something to get it off my chest...


i wish i knew how to say this. i really wish i knew. i dont like to know that everything is one sided. and it really makes me feel like giving up. im trying so hard day by day to not think about it. but i cant. honestly... im really lost to know that i do like a stranger whom i dont really know (well from what others say), but willing to do so much for. its really silly of me to keep thinking about it all the time. how do i react to it now? i see u so often, once every corner, i dont know if its a good thing but it kept me thinking about it.

i wonder if you felt the same, if you would feel like i do. but im so sure that it isnt. why would you fall for a guy like me? something i know i dont deserve for what i've failed. no matter how much i know i can do, it doesnt seem like i've got any chance.

sometimes i wish i knew that i do know you. but inside. it feels like everything is so superficial and on the outside. dont you know that i felt hurt upon what i saw. maybe it was the wrong impression i gave, but i do not care about anything else. nothing else. and till now, from ever so long, it has always been you. ,


gonna study for history... all the best for me!




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breaking free to something new. =)