it cant be possibly u that spoilt my mood. for no reason. i know so badly i wanna leave now. at least to pursure where i had intent to go for quite a long time.

its my dream to go there. a humble dream in which i escaped from a terrible past. a past i wish i would never had to live again, but if i will i will do my best... once again... if i were to die for you i will. silly of me.

please. at least make me. i dont know how. i dont know what. please let my little dream come true. for all i've been thru. i know i at least deserve it. i've tried, i've made a change in myself... so please... may it come true.

dont be silly anymore. its jus 2 days till u can forget abt it. it doesnt matter anymore in which im gonna leave. but it hurts to know its something i dont mind having. but its really stupid if i were to drown myself in it. its really stupid if i were to keep thinking of it.

hopefully i can bring the best out of myself. hopefully i can bring the best out in whatever i do, my sport, my passion and my life. most of all, i wish i could do it with someone, someone whom i seemed to be too used to being with. but it doesnt come easily, i give myself away easily.



i gave u my heart,
you gave me hurt.
i gave you my heart,
you brought me pain.

i did not know why,
i was so silly.
i did not know why,
i was such a fool.

but i knew,
that i had to give.
for it blew,
a life to live.

cant u treasure,
when i give in all.
a little pressure,
why did u fall?

you need not slap me,
you need not break me.
because i know i've tried,
to forgive the simplest lies.

i cant trust,
cant you see i cant.
my faith turned to dust,
what do i have left?

yet this time,
im willing to be the fool.
im willing to break,
maybe just for you."



i dont know why. its troubling. so what is troubling me?
cant u materialise yourself? show me that you aint no exception. its really complicating and intricating inside to keep thinking about it, like a bullettrain running through my veins, each time u hit the stop it causes a blackout, with each blackout a chance to revamped my lonely spirit. what do i do without you? or what would i do with you. theres nothing to changed my confused heart, even with god, thou shall hurt to forget thus far.




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breaking free to something new. =)