well we dont need to say anything just yet. i have been wondering what i have done wrong to deserve such a treatment sometimes. but the treatment i have got is something that has been done right inside of me and nothing else. i gotta see what i have lies in my future. yeahs.

1t33 didnt run ytd. cuz of some people who are so irresponsible.
i would run for u guys, so dont make it sound if it was part my fault that i couldnt lift my leg to run.

im feeling some strain in the shin again. its hurting like omfg. im like trying to jogjogjog a little. then stretch and icing it. but its not working. i wanna train a lil of sprints next week with kenrick and nigel. oh buddies. but its like so difficult. even mark is gonna teach me and nigel rugby so we can play for school next year. its cool thinking that the coach wants us in but we gotta reject cuz of track commitments. ohwells!

when will i decide to make full use of my time? i wonder. its really awkward to know that im doing things depending on my mood. i have been sleeping really early recently. im like so tired doing everything.

im gonna find time during breaks to study at the library. its so "orange" and bright inside and cold. i like it cold. =D=D=D then i can immerse myself in my music and study. to think of it, i wasnt aware of my surroundings at all for the whole one hour. COOL. =D i like the little distractions part, it keeps me focus. and and and. i MANAGE TO DO 7 PULL UPS! OH MY GOD> AMAZING FEAT. i swear i could only do 2 like last week. ok. MORE workout and bicep curls and dips. jus keep it up and jog more often. NAPFA WILL BE A BREEZE.

I SO WANNA GO CAMBRIDGE. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! aaron u gotta wake up from dreamland and mugg even harder esp when the tracher chose u out of the hundreds to compete for the 1 of the 4 places. not many ppl get the chance to go and it will really be very good if i got the chance and get a chance to go. maybe this is a sign to work hard then.

well this is a little something from inside me.


"when time flies nevertheless,
we'll see each other again.
i never had any motive,
to know that i'd like u all the time.

i dont believe in fate,
because it is so superficial.
i dont believe in love,
maybe cuz its materialistical.

but love to what we define,
love is that we design.
it was never jus a feeling,
but our efforts to pursue.

dont cry for the last minute,
when our hearts suffice.
cuz when we think too much,
thats when nothing is ever enough.

i shall remember the time,
when i did work for you.
it seemed like the millionth time,
where i fell in love with you.

it was those few words,
that i heard u spoke before.
those words of concern,
i wished a little more.

saying is jus declaration,
actions are my recollections.
i wish i knew time limitations,
so i could start my preparations.

candlelight, sunset, strolls,
alongside the embrace for more.
for i do love not for majority,
my heart is clear with its clarity.

so what do you think?
i so want to know.
for how you feel,
its my priceless fold."





...if u were to think all my words were from somewhere, the only place you could find is inside of me...



i guess im gonna start on my history work. tonight's concert i hope it will be a good one. no one from t39 is going except laura and shiyu. owells.

it doesnt matter what my heart desires, because ultimately, as long as you are happy... thats what matters most. the smile i see every so often.




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breaking free to something new. =)