yesterday was damn farnie. shiyu ahh shiyu. the fishball of 1t39! hopefully there is sometime for the outing.

it was a nice time to think it was a nice time to recover. i think i just haf to abide by my own decision to stay in cjc. well for the next 2 years. the friends i've promised, the teams i have swore to be with. i guessed it was for the best of most people.

i cant wait to see what comes next, yet i wished for more time to improve myself, it takes such a long time to get to that standard again after injury. sometimes i wish i had the ability to help myself, maybe... it takes more than just time.

i dont know what is the distraction. i dont know what is the influence. i think it be great if i can just keep on focusing. maybe i am. i know i am. i think i can do it and i wanna do it. i guess track training will be 5 times a week for me. the timetable schedule is so hectic. especially that i end like 5 on non cca days and including mondays. it makes time very precious, but it also keeps me occupied. i dont know whether to be happy or not. owells.

my whole body shorta hurts. but its hurts in a way that i think it might make me improve once again. i guess its painful but if i were to train on saturdays as well. i dont know lah. i did like to try another sport. maybe hockey or volleyball or badminton. but it was badminton that i've let go very long ago, i wonder what it would be like. oh man.




i dont wanna think about you, neither do i wanna let you go. sigh.




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breaking free to something new. =)