so so so. it be great to be like this.

it doesnt matter that if i have became more ignorant. but dont we all realise that what we see is something that everyone wish that it would be different. it doesnt seem that if i become ignorant i will become less likely to feel like before. but it affects the others around me more than before.

but who cares?

i do. i seriously do.

lets believe in this opportunity of redundance of our own silly thinking. maybe lets slip away from time. because if we were able to make better use of it. it would be as if it werent there at all to be regretted about.

its really fun to see the different expressions i saw on many other people's faces, the way they believed that they were a league above the rest. or maybe i should believe the arrogance that you are trying to imply to me. but what can i say? maybe i should just try to avoid you all. definitely i would feel so much better.

its gonna be chem test tomorrow. and im so so so gonna fuck it up so badly. well, i cant seem to study and im getting that really sleepy aura in class. its like, i cant keep myself from sleeping. maybe everything is so boring. i only cant sleep in history class. contradictory eh?

i hope i dont screw up JC life. its a do or die mission. somehow, i wanna leave CJC. but i dont know why that i will miss everyone. but i dont wanna lose them just because im gone. but of course, i dont know if i can go somewhere else in the first place as well. so how? im in a dilemia. what should i do? how should i choose? everything has been pretty nice so far. and i believe that everything can be a little better.

careful aaron. careful. you dont wanna fall into the same trap you were being tempted with. jus that stroke of insincerity would seal my fate. a stupid belief. it will change my entire life. once again.

i shall not say i miss you. because im tying not to. and furthermore, it would definitely twist my mind again.

sleep boy sleep. dont wake up and start thinking again. enjoy the simplistic lifestyle. if you have to kill yourself for it, do it.


however. deep inside, i miss being with a you.




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breaking free to something new. =)