ahh its the new year 2o07.

"Who's gonna call on sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion"


i love this song by anberlin


what do i want this new year? what do i really need? what should i have to satisfy myself and make sure everything falls into place? how much i confess how i truely feel? isnt it enough? that i should really move on? i'll only be fed with the usual disappointment. maybe i'll be there when u really needed me. but when u dont, i'll be chuck aside. but it'll be find.

your hello would change my world

time will tell, that we can change the world. that we can make the difference. what who is willing to change after that casual hardship. was it too late? when we realise our own worth has dropped?



"have i become the joke,
of your casual remark.
the harder you push me away,
the closer you get.

would you love me,
the way you saw me.
could you hold me,
the way u wanted it to be.

i wont be dreaming,
for this one last chance.
for you to return,
but its my, my fault.

i cant forgive,
i cant reconcile.
i cant accept,
your apology.

i jus wont let you,
someone whom i love.
back into my fragile heart,
once again.

because i bevelievd its only once,
where this once.
is my enture trust,
based upon you.

have you realise,
it was over.
that your loss,
was my to gain.

and that we could never be
together ever again.
come on come on,
let it go.

i have to be a man,
to do what i have to do.
for that,
you're my everything to lose.

i wont get stuck in this,
because i have control.
of my once uncontrollable feelings,
for this i thank you.

you cant see it like i do,
because we aint the same.
you can be alright,
just be who you are then.

you have up-ed ur game,
i have to up mine.
but it was never a game,
that you wanted to play.

i've closed my eyes,
and shut my ears.
to hear your voice,
dream away.

i would never believe in you,
i would never trust in you.
i would never hold you tight,
and you are called love.




i dont know what i want, i bet many people dont know too, CJC starts tomorrow, but i most prob move on. hopefully. i have fallen down, but i've picked myself up. you have made it look so easy, but ure dying inside, and i know it. cuz ure stuck in that cycle, that ure began with me.


ok to think about it, what i wanted, is incrypted in my heart. maybe only you can open it up and find out. 3 wishes, only 3 wishes. genie? where are you then.




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breaking free to something new. =)