damn it lah. so much chocolate in the house. mum is eating it and im abstaining. freak. but i ate it eventually. it made my already tortured throat even more sore and really ticklish. like soo gooey there. EWWW =D

ONE WEEK NO PE AND CCA AND PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES =)

i bet many are jealous

oh damn those times where people are so screwed up lah. the only thing i hate abt it was that the lack of respect upon my own beliefs. freak of nature ppl running around and smooching to temptation's call. what the hell i swear.

yesterday's capl was fucked up lah. lost like so fast. but it wasnt meant to be like this. ohwells. this is how it ends with this note.
hanging my gear up
but the T shirt is not bad leh, quite cooling and nice to wear. hoho. free somemore. take lahh =D im like a frigging freeloader lah.


have been POOLing like alot nowadays. its MONEY MONEY fly away man. ahhh im addicted to so many shit nowadays. especially alcohol lah. cant resist it. its like so nice to drunk away all your sorrows, each gulp makes u wanna throw off all the bullshit in ur head away. even the after effects are horrendous, who cares, its nice to live for the moment. jus for that moment, that would make a difference in everything that you do, so what are u waiting for?



"i would wanna lose it all,
i do wanna learn to fly.
so that i can touch the sky,
away from here and bye.



everything is like so hassle wassle lassle bassle passle nassle tassle HASSLE. its feels like everything is spining so fast in front of me, but im slow to reaction and i have to face the downturn of being rejected by my own decisions. i'll get confused, not wanting to pick myself up and yet to be throw yet into another unfamiliar territory where i will bleed myself to death.

dont u wanna see me die? dont u wanna see me cry? i've been down under for so long, wouldnt you pick me up and said it was enough. i've played enought games, and i have participate in the devil's temptation. the last shot was you, but u made it felt that i have to do it all over again. stop cycling around in circles, maybe for once, we head somewhere, somewhere with a goal, somewhere with a motive, somewhere where we can smile, togehter once again.


dxo was quite fun ytd. i mean jus chil out and stuff lah. not bad not bad. maybe i have to go more often? but going when im sick its not exactly a good idea. massive smokers jus turns me off. awww. but its pretty cool, jus able to look around, to see how scandalous we can actually be.

we choose how we live our lives
and for that, it will be our own fault.

sometimes i wonder where the problems lies, i guess it was probably with me. but who cares, if its time to make the change, i would never change for you, because i know, you will only live in coentention while draining me out.

today is so sian, rain rain rain, cant it stop raining for once? bloody irritating leh, always rain, so so so cold. didnt wanna go out, but did went to church and visited my neighbourhood doctor. wooo so yes i got my MC but too bad not for JAIME. i aint getting for her one =) now she has got to be a good girl and forget her naughty thots =)


"i need to start to be myself,
because i dont wanna be like everybody else.
i need to live my own,
and not live by you alone."


so what is it now that we all wanted. to live this fruitful live effortlessly? i guess thats when we are wrong, i will overcome this obstable and hope for more challenges, maybe in hope that someday, i will be able to love someday.




;
breaking free to something new. =)