oh my... im trying too hard. falling... yes im falling...


i dont understand certain behaviour of humans. okok sounds so superficial. but its like that. YES LIKE THAT DAMMNIT.

u wouldnt wanna know what im thinking. neither would it benefit you if u knew if u werent prepared. because it is shut down perfectly to many. sorry then to those many.

movie tomorrow, with the guys. and soccer again at night. TRAIN ME HARD PLS GUYS =D

i think im gonna fall sick.... played in the rain and was soaking wet when i came home. *shruggs*

had a talk with nicole. pretty great.

nicole : this would hurt abit. especially to me, but i dont wan you to know what it really is. but im glad to be there for you when u need me =) cheer up (guess u dont need to) or rather, do what u need to do, im sure u know =)


i feel like givin up. maybe jus throw it away. argh. what should i do? i aint gonna confide in anyone. im stubborn and im gonna stay this way. a blockhead.


struck my heart,
it bled so deep.
flew like a dart,
insights to weep.

how many times,
must i try so hard.
in hoping you realise,
its been so long.

i feel my patience running dry,
till im living a lie.
where have my determination gone to,
please dont tell me im a fool.

on my own,
im bleeding to death.
but everyone else, please,
please go away.

i want to feel this pain,
that i felt so long ago.
please let me realise,
its a complete no.

slap me in the face,
a leave without a trace.
will this make you smile,
forever or awhile?

maybe happiness is complicated,
or was it jus so comical?
where you will smile,
only when im gone.

i should stop believing,
that you were the one.
because, like they say,
there's a bigger ocean.

but yet again,
why do i feel this way?
should i trust feelings?
my heart or my brain?

weeping and crying,
my dear girl.
u've lost the chance,
to what u called reconcilation.

i wish i could fly,
to somewhere far away.
but if i were to see more than now,
please tear my wings apart.

my bones,
were meant for breaking.
my flesh,
meant for mutilating.

my heart,
meant to be tested.
my soul,
razed with the fire.

the fire that was seen,
blazing in your eyes.
that set me on fire,
the moment i saw u.

i shouldnt think so much,
or you be running at large.
right in my head,
inside my bloody head.

torn apart,
jus go away.
no please come back,
confused... pains.



ahh its so early. =D so its gonna be outing tomorrow and soccer at nite. hmmmm yawns~ nites.




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breaking free to something new. =)