i wonder why some things have to be so difficult? issit becoz we think too much abt what is going to happen? cant it be so simple? cant it be jus like that? jus to have u to know more then i exist.

love is only a feeling. its what we wanna do with the feeling. there are times i "felt" love but i know it cant go on, i realise its better now or too late, and it hurt many, many a few to count, but this time, i've held on when i saw u for 2 months, and im still holding on, because i know its more than jus a feeling. im willing to go on to what it feels, because in reality, thats what love is. but i know it will remain like that, i felt that i've never taken my chances. now im regretting.

i saw u left, u gave that look. its something i never did expected. it did make u look like a fool, and then i realise, it wouldnt be the same anymore, because i knew, u were serious this time, that it was entirely my fault for not doing my part, to even say hello, or even to look you in the eye.

baby i wish at least i knew ur name, cuz this time i would do anything jus to say hello, and then i would look you in the eyes. i dont care this time. it was my principle if i dont do it now it will never ever come again. time and time again... everything seem so impossible. but i realise, i made it impossible myself. i wish i knew everything u felt, if everything that happened was real, if it is, it was my mistake, that i never took my courage, to say hello...

a hero to say a hero to play, never comes the feeling of my own dignity. why has it become like this.... why?

its always easy to help someone, to do something for someone if u really care. but for yourself... if it was enver of selfish reasons... it is so difficult.... please give me one more chance, please... one more chance... or jus one more hint. give me that confidence that i used to have, the confidence that i wont get hurt again, a chance, to love you.. one more time. please... please. i'll do anything so as long as i dont regret. please...




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breaking free to something new. =)