seriously.... seriously.... fuck it.

if anyone were to say they care. throw away everything, your own self interest, thats what i call care. i know i dont care many things, but i do care for those whom i love so dear. but now i wonder, who CARES. maybe i shouldnt even bother in the first place.

fucked up society.

"im living a shadow of myself,
a mourning hedonist wannabe,
a fool for his own mistakes,
his own wounds he mortifies himself,
so long its good night,
excrutiating he felt,
the very hurt you told to me,
made me felt like giving up,
from what i've been running away for so long,
and when i have stopped the escape,
misery inevitable,
its worst then giving up,
becoz i've lost you"


maybe it feels like i lost just more than you, it feels like love is always about one person, but when u realise that even a stranger can compare to you, everything about you. its so foolish, but its true, its just that how much it pains, it may be like that but do you really care? happy go lucky, merry round the ferry. would you ever see how pain feels like? maybe when physical pain feels like nothing at all. but i see that its good for you, never get involve, maybe its for the better future. i dont what to say, maybe i dont wanna say i love you. becoz inside i know, you dont really do.


prelims fucked up yeah. so O levels, im so gonna get over you the way i always do my stuff. jus pawn you.



to many out there. give up hope on me, i dont wanna live the lies you have told me. im gonna be direct, fuck off if you all wanna act that you guys bother. but jus to make yourself look so cool. so COOL. guess its humility that makes the difference, yeah, a handful though. so scram.




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breaking free to something new. =)