sometimes i jus wished i can stop all im feeling now. its always nicer to conceal your feelings. i mean, i wish it hurt that little bit for a very long time, then to pain a lifetime. maybe i would tell you, when im dying, maybe that way, the pain would just last that little while, when i die, at least i do not live to regret at all.


if only i could turn back time, i would take back all i said, and watch you grow, happily. sigh, cant really study, i wonder how ppl can stop thinking abt such things, arent such things so dear to them? it meant so much to me, i dont know what i'll do without it. seriously, i dont know...


i realise all the songs i like, speaks to what im feeling now, my exact mood, and i keep palying it and it kept ringing in my head. if only it was so easy as you said, to forget about you, or jus to forget. didnt u say it will take a lifetime to forget someone? im struggling for so long to forget you. i have been trying, cuz i'll never be good enough, and i know that, u have been asking me to do what i think is best for you, but i cant, i cant help it. running away causes more hurt, it causes more grief and more regret.


im so stressed and tired, i cant stop thinking, i would jus lie in an open plains, screams my trouble out, even when no one is listening, i would cry every single tear, till it swells.


if i could be your hero,
i will kiss your pain away.
if i could be your hero,
i would take your breathe away.

but it needs is one chance,
one oppurtunity,
that moment of a lifetime,
that would make a difference.

i cant escape your clutches,
its not feasible by any means.
i wont try to hold on,
anymore.

i'll try to forget,
i'll hurt myself to do that.
if thats what you really want,
so be it."



headache, stressed, tired, fatigue. anything you name it. im pushing myself, so i can spend a moment not thinking abt you. but when it comes, it comes at one go. i dont know what i should do. all i know it aint your fault, neither is it anyone else, fundamentally, its mine. sigh.




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breaking free to something new. =)