just cut my hair. fux.

MY DREAM WISHLIST for NOW

1. do well for prelims *halfway done*
2. get damn fit and strong
3. learn how to study smartly
4. more time to mug
5. to sort out my feelings


sometimes people jus dont know what they say.


//topic A:
sometimes its my fault i went too far till u cant settle for less. its like there is no normal again. i find it stupid lah. so at least maybe i can just forget about it already. you never meant what u said. in doubt? think again when someone really needs time alone.

//topic B:
i never really understood time alone. i find it a waste of time and all that nothing could be done. but i realise that its so important. i never realise it. it could make alot of difference though.

//topic C:
pathetic lah, so much time spent studying dunno if its gonna get into my head. im tired but i wanna play. i feel a day needs 50 hours. thats more fair.





if only i could make a difference,
in such a small small world.
where the mighty rule with an iron fist,
the lowly settle among the mist.

how i wish my dreams come true,
to see your eyes and hear you say you love me too.
but its because ure so imperfect,
thats why im scared to lose you.

miles apart i stood before,
where time is an enemy, the greatest of all.
i wouldnt say i love you,
fearing you know it all.

sigh sigh i lie and cry,
my heartaches swells my tears run dry.
oh darling darling i miss you so,
to the deeps ends i run below.

clear my thoughts and say you do,
how much you mean to me im such a fool.
it wont work at this point of time,
theres no such commitment at all to rhyme.





i love to write my own poems. it aint that god though. but it allows me to say stuff i cant say in words alone itself. its hard. its putting ur emotions differently. in how a song tells its meaning. well well i dont know what to say.

girl A.
i so so so really like you. yet i cant seem to bear to like u. im confused. but ure not those type. ahhh. i dont know. sometimes i can ignore you so easily, sometimes i cant stop thinking about u. ure not always affecting me, but sometimes you just do. its jus pure infactuation.


SOME GIRLS ARE HOT, just to see.
SOME GIRLS ARE HOT, admire with glee.
SOME GIRLS ARE HOT, apppreciation within.
SOME GIRLS ARE HOT, most likely they're just whores.

no offence, im just saying from my point of view on the many i see all the time. pretty loose people though. cant stand it. i wanna learn from my mistakes, apologise, move on and not repeat it a 2nd time. -- ideal life of a perfectionist?

"if only you could tell me your name
and say hello
and land a kiss
that sweet touch,

i'll turn off the lights
and let romance settle withing thee.
its only a dream dumbfuck.
it will not happen now. " - my own reality =)


sleep sleep sleep. tomorrow is gonna be 9.30 to 9.30.
ADD MATH AND HISTORY. own pls =)




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breaking free to something new. =)