today was one of my worst days these few days. horrible.

history was A1.

add math is history...
screwed. no more L1R5 already lah.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

haiz.
fucking depressed.
cant go jc. wtf lar.

i dont know what to say.
feel like cutting myself,
feel like smashing my knuckles,
feel like playing someone feelings,
feel like ruining myself,
feel like getting into a fight,
feel like getting drunk.
was away my sorrows, any way pls.

so i can escape from my present perils. i dont care abt the future. jus now now now now now now, that it dont hurt so badly.


so embaressing. i teared outside staff room. teachers thought what happened. so wtf. i really mugged so hard and in the end i couldnt do half the paper. i could do, but i blanked out. haiz its so fucked up lar. fuck fuck fuck. im so irritated, frustrated, i jus wanna hit somebody.

i wanna do so well. run away from my sorrows, my past that i regretted. i wanna live again. everytime i try, i just fall deeper. haiz.
depression?

*SHE din come today, damn sad. maybe seing her would cheer me up alot. i think shes damn cute? i mean, a positive thinking girl. studies, priorities type of girl... i like- =)

hmmmm i dont know lah. can i get a study girlfriend? =) at least someone smarter than me. =)



leave me alone. maybe i jus prefer quiet time myself. im sorry.


i feel there is no one there for me, either i push them away, or i just cannot trust them. sigh. i'll die alone. bye




;
breaking free to something new. =)