ok im so tired and frustrated and disappointed. everything lar.

arlana
sorry i saw u but din say hi. pai seh.


its pretty stressful to know that u must score 88/100 on the next paper to ensure the bloody A1. on top of that the SS paper did not go very well either. stayed back in school till its bloody late, 10.15 that day b4 and really tried but i got nothing out of it. im really disappointed lar. i jus wanna kill myself if i dont do well. its prelims 3 but it seems like O lvls.

to think of it, i dont why im studying, maybe im better doing something else instead right? wouldnt it be much better and on top of that, it would make more sense if i did something to my own interest. its society somehow that makes things so difficult for me.

why are my parents over worrying abt me? im so irritated keep calling ask what time come home, i studying also cannot, play also cannot. then want me do well. not practical okay. jus leave me alone.


LITTLE TINGE OF HAPPINESS.
i bought a new nike bag =D its BLACK =)
thanks to my mum when met her and she gave me 100 to spend. cool right? hahas <3 you mummy =)


its pain, so pain,
why its like this so disdained.
my heart broke when i saw you,
to love it seemed i was a fool.

its sweet, so sweet,
but it cuts in jus so deep.
rake up the past, once again,
please no, not the pain.

i cry, isolated to the corner,
because i kept thinking about you.
why i said, why...
because to the ends of the earth i will die for you.

say you love when when i do,
punished for the sins, i was used as a tool.
regretting that i never said it earlier,
to now i find myself surrender.

i love you i love you,
why do i keep thinking about you.
please, jus once, make me hate you,
but each time i fall so deeply for you.



fancy liking person A for a very long time. Most probably it was the first girl u ever liked. but it was in sec 1 i first saw her. it wasnt the use of high tech gadgets like handphones or the PC. i jus happen to see her. and had to see her for a very long time. Then person B comes along and develops this sense of comfort and really sweet feeling in me. and i was given the choice of yes and no. FOOL i was, i said yes. i did like to try out something new. in the end, i got addicted, like smoking. (okay it isnt a drug, its worst). Time past, i keep seeing A while with B, then it was C, then D, Then E, Then F. F made me realise it wasnt a game though. it was... different. it was really different, haiz... then came G, and then H. oh i HATE u H. for completely destroying my life. it was so good. everything, im empty, becoz of you. i hate you. BIG TIME. and now im thinking of A. *shruggs.
"what if i said i've loved you A. i've learnt so much in this 5 years, im so afraid that its the bad things that will always turn out for me.;

its complicated. im sure of certain feelings. but its always jumbled out. i dreamnt of you and i saw you. it wasnt coincidence. ahh what im thinking. its surely real? i cant stop thinking. ahhhh **** lah. O lvls once finish, its gaming and U. maybe i take my chance =D =D =D



joke of the day while walking in orchard to buy my bag. was actually waiting at mrt with fengheng, waiting for junkai to come. this gentlemen approached me with something like an offer for some advertising and modelling thing. i was like. WTF hello. ure talking to mr ugly. then i said
"eh my fren here u wan? he can sign up or not?"
the guy was like hesitate
"ok lah both both"
then i gave my name age and number
then he said thanks and walk away.
my fren went something like this; his look
"eh wtf what abt me"
OK NO "WTF" INSIDE HAPPY FENG?
poor FENGHENG GOT DAOED
HAHAHAHAHAS
OWNED IN UR FACE> =X ok thats all.

feng: DONT ACT DOWAN LAH! =D =D =D =D


ridiculous






"if i know ure the one, please take the chance, cuz i hope ure the one that loves me too."




;
breaking free to something new. =)