if ever i choose a song to represent myself. this would be the one... i finally begin to pick myself up, only to fall becoz i stepped on the wrong stone. i cannot go on like this. studying keeps my mind off everything. its good, but its stressful and i haven't been like this for a long time. its so sudden. actually i realise im running away from my own pain only that it comes back to me sooner or later. oh fux.

enjoy... the story of me =)




POETIC TRAGEDY
---the used.

The cup is not half empty as pessimists say
As far as he sees nothing's left in the cup
A whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge
Since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up

A singer, a writer
He's not dreaming now of going nowhere
He gave heed to nothing, and all that he was...
Is just a tragedy

So he voyages in circles
Succeeds getting nowhere
And submits to the substance
That first got him there

Then in violent frustration he cries out to God or just no one
Is there a point to this madness
and all that he was...
Is just a tragedy

He feels alone
His heart in his hand
He's alone
He feels alone
I feel...

Then on that last day he breaks
And he stood tall
And he yelled...and he takes his life





this is a lil screamo. but i HATE screamo. but i really have to give an exceptional for this. the lyrics, the tune. its all so perfect. i have nothing to say.

i've found out im way better off like this. you dont see it dont you. in future okay? =)



i dont i'll get into another relationship unless its serious and im comfortable. not at the moment =X but serious if i ever do anything wrong.... im sorry. this is who i am, for now. it speaks of everything.





My Friends Over You
---a new found glory.

I'm drunk off your kiss
For another night in a row
This is becoming too routine for me
But I didn't mean to lead you on
And it's all right to pretend
That we still talk
It's just for show, isn't it?
It's my fault that it fell apart

Just maybe
you need this
and I didn't
Mean to lead you on

You were everything I wanted
but I just can't
finish what I've started.
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
My friends over you

Please tell me everything,
That you think that I should know
About all the plans you made
When I was no where to be found.
And it's all right to forget
That we still talk
It's just for fun, isn't it?
It's my fault that it fell apart

Just maybe
You need this
and I didn't
Mean to
lead you on

You were everything I wanted
but I just can't finish what I've started
There's no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
My friends over you

Just maybe you need this
You need this…
And I didn't
Mean to lead you on

You were everything I wanted
but I just can't
finish what I've started
There's no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over...

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't
finish what I've started
There's no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
My friends over you




im really sorry if i did anything wrong and it takes time for me to say sorry to everyone else. but im picking myself up again. its not the sympathy i need or i want. maybe jus the honest opinions of many. i dont know why i got myself into this. i would be better gone after all//


school sucks. exams and i think i screwed physics, all the careless mistakes. its like in 1 hour and a half time its geog paper? and im so screwed? like suddenly its such a large range to cover. and im so so so pissed. argh.

SO MUCH WORK SO LITTLE TIME

this is stressful. period.
ok back to my work and yeah ciaoz.
yesyes i cant wait to meet rachelle. it has been 190890184129032 years since i last saw you! =)

peace~




;
breaking free to something new. =)