why... why why why why why why why??? im asking myself why. Its not about me thinking so much. its about.... you.

i've made u fall in love with me,
i guess its my fault.
you wouldnt have felt this way,
its really my fault.
you'll get hurt so badly,
thats surely my fault.


why do you love me? i've nothing to give, we cant be together, knowing that hurts me so much, thats what hurts the most?
maybe its becoz i've been trying and given up so easily, in the process, i made a terrible mistake. it was no lie, i really meant it all the way, all i did was to love u a lil more and it turned out like this. //marry me, marry you dont... hate, love, happiness, religion.....

i guess the barrier will be there, silence shared between the imperfects. stay there i will say, jus stay there, i dont know what will u say when u call. what will u see if u saw...

as usual the problems lies with me as everyone says so. it never been anyone elses fault but mine. i'll live with it, i guess the world is really unfair.


//i wish i was him, to hold your hand.
//i wish i was him, to spend the night with you.
//i wish i was him, to mess your hair.
//i wish i was him, to gaze the stars together.
//i wish i was him, in every aspect of a lil romance.


but i guess im a nobody, some things i wished i never knew and was never told. because... i love you so much, it will set a blaze of jealousy in me, the mark of envy. to know he still exists, it worries me, what if u did say i love you to him, it will shatter my heart.
//im having a heartache...

there is nothing i can do, my life, my love, my direction lies in your hands, my heart is yours. do whatever you want with it.

-hurt me,
i'll be fine.
-love me,
i'll be glad.
-torture me,
i'll hold on.
-kill me,
i'll die in your eyes.



what can i do to make you happy? being with me doesn't as i see that your heart and your mind do not agree.
what can i do to make you smile? my words my thoughts jus make you want to cry.
what can i do to be with you? ahh its jus thoughts, jus a dream, its impossible... impossible... i think. i love you.




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breaking free to something new. =)