im feeling weak. i dont know what happened. Its jus suddenly, i feeling really tired. Inside of me feels the fatigue of thinking.

it was a moment ago where everything flashed across me. I couldnt help but think of it. It wasnt my fault, it came like that. Its scary, im scared, im afraid, it would happen again. it pains me, my hearts kinda felt this sharp pain, my body numb and my head spins a later. it hurts so badly inside, after all i try, i got was shit and pain. headache...




to someone:

//im afraid of loving you
... but i want to.
//im afraid of being with you
... cuz it might hurt you.
//im afraid of looking into your eyes
... it might make me reveal my feelings.
//im afraid of thinking about you
... cuz i've already fallen for you.

ure always on my mind.
Would it be seen my mistake? Was is my fault? Or was it the smile that i fell for i had made when i'm with you? I know this feeling sucks, I know this feelin is dreaded but I believe its here for a reason. I find it very hard to let go of the most simple of emotions.

i do not know what i wanna do. I hope everything turns for the better. give me time, and love. i wish to find the direction, to hold off all barriers, we'll be free, with God, nothing is impossible.

//i miss you


when im with you i could see the stars,
i thought, i felt i cry.
Holding my hands up in sweet surrender,
i couldnt resist your smile, the kiss so tender.
walking down this lonely lane,
im afraid of once falling in love again.
i do not see u as a stranger,
but in you i see a believer.
no matter how much it doesnt seem to be able to work,
i would suffer, jus to be with you.
dancing in the moonlight rays,
hoping into the stars i gaze.
across time stands countless trials,
i'll do anything jus to see your smile.
all this i say, the words may sound in dismay,
im jus trying to express my feelings in array.
may the day we are together
it could last, last forever.
i love you ---.




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breaking free to something new. =)