8:52 am
Hadn't had much sleep since 2-3 days ago, o wells, much to my surprise was that i did not feel the urge to sleep, most probably it was the feeling of anxiety or anticipation of a in depth depression setting its sides ferociously upon the lack of faith i've succumbed to. Sweet thoughts? think again...
Although i couldnt sleep, it was Y who kept mi awake, i mean not that Y was forcing me to be awake, but it was the comfort that really brought about the relentless desire to keep talking. Surely something is amiss i thought, defintely i had found a new addiction but was it something i had derived out of sympathy to myself or the desire to make sure i was feeling better, this time, it was different. if
lyn couldnt appreciate anything, it makes Y simple and caring attitude make so much of a difference, a whole different perspective...
As i had said it lasted till 4 am plus plus in the morning, really sleepy i thought... couldnt believe i had rather stayed awake then to feel myself attending to the satisfactory of a good nights sleep. Y i really appreciate everything *wink*
it made a difference....
A war of struggle persisted within me, the fight for that recognition that i really had tried my best, u guys were behind me... but only one knows the entire truth. The reality... it pains, it hurts, its agonising, but i do not care at all... for now i love my friends more than anything else.... i won't neglected them for a whore. I promise....
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breaking free to something new. =)
